I am writing this at 02:08 am, these are the kind of hours that leave you in deep thought questioning your entire life. I guess that is where I am right now, and I am not sure if the best thing to do right now is to write because everything just ends up super emotional lol! But here we are!
I haven’t been able to post a new blog in about two weeks, which has been killing me, mostly because I write firstly for myself because its therapeutic in a way. Thanks to the podcast, I’ve still been able to create content which is something that keeps me sane.
Writing is my escape, as well as something that helps me get my thoughts out so I can think clearly. My dilemma lately has been the fact that on one hand, I want to write because there are things/topics I want to discuss on this blog. On the other hand, I also kind of want to write about things that are relevant to my journey right now. The former is good because I have things I would like to write about and I want to be faithful to that, but that would be at the expense of feeling connected to the article I write. (The F in INFJ is really for feeling, side note: INFJ is a personality type if that reference went over your head lol). The latter is I guess my natural state of writing, just pouring out my feelings as I am doing right now, which challenging because I don’t like oversharing because I don’t know if it is always beneficial.
On top of all of this, I also decided to prioritize my mental and emotional health this year, and sometimes I am not doing so well which means my writing suffers because of it. I don’t like it when things I committed to are suffering because I am not doing so well (a story for another day).
For today’s 02:00 am entry, writing is difficult because they are different dynamics that come into play in one’s head as you decide what to write about, eventually writing about it and then sharing it. All these are different emotional experiences, emotional experiences that I am not sure I know how to deal with right now.
Right now, I am stuck between desiring to write out of discipline or because I want to be honest about my journey and what I am going through or not doing either for the sake of self-care but also life just being busy right now. Which side will win? Only time will tell.
Writers, content creators, bloggers, vlogger; what are some of the dilemma’s you go through in the process of creating? How do you deal with them? Do you feel the pressure to create consistently?
Readers/consumers; What kind of content do you like to consume? Honest and vulnerable? Or do you prefer a more structured approach?